Writer 's lament

With the publication of "Shrink: Odyssey of a Therapist" the major work now begins. Writing is the easiest task. You are being creative, you have a need to write, and the exercise is mostly fun, especially with a novel and,following Stephen King's advice, you don't work from an outline and don't know until the end how the story will finish. Editing is pure misery but is time limited. Marketing, probably the
major task, seems forever. I now am in the throes of trying to make my book known. I have decided against book signings. The potential rewards are small unless a major bookstore stocks the work on its shelves, which is hard to arrange. However, the Internet offers a wealth of opportunities to spread the word if you are willing to invest the time. You need to respond to other blogs on a regular basis, using the
comments to mention why the writer might be interested in your work. You need to develop ways to make your own blog read by using resources such as Facebook. While the publisher sends out press releases, it behooves the author to contact local newspapera and radio stations, hoping for an interview. All of these efforts, while necessary, are extremely time consuming with little likelihood of a payoff. To add to the misery, substantial financial rewards are unlikely. In my case royalties are less than $2.00 on a book listing for $30. To sell my novel. which took over two years including editing, I must pay the publisher more than I can purchase it for at Barnes & Noble who is discounting it 20%. This, despite the fact that I was asked to contribute toward initial publication costs. Will I do another novel? Yes. I've had a short novella--a followup of Shrink--accepted by a different publisher, with no up front feess. Probably more problems but it's better than letting the manuscript gather dust in my basement or clog up my hardrive.

Cognitive therapy in the high school

15 year old boy: "You called me at the right time. I'm very upset."
Therapist: What's up?"
Boy: My girl friend dumped me. Then she told me she's been cheating on me. We were having an affair?"
Therapist: What kind of affair...sexual"?
Boy: No ...you know."
"Therapist: Making out?"
"Yeah, that's it. And she told me she been cheating on me, many times. I'm furious. My adrenaline has been flowing.I was up all night. I'm a mess."
Therapist:"So you are angry?"
Boy: I am furious.I can't get it out of my mind."
T: What do you tell yourself before you feel angry"?
Boy: "I tell myself I hate cheaters."
T: You need to get over this and move on."
Boy: "I can't. I keep thinking about it."
"What must you do to move on"?
"I have no idea."
"You need to change your thinking. You need to say something different to yourself."
"I don't know what to say."
"Let's explore that. Are there other girls you could be interestd in"?
"Yeah but girls think Iam 'emo'"
""Emotional?"
"Yeah."
"Emo is bad?"
"Not cool."
"All girls think that"?
"Almost all."
"Have you had other girl friends"?
"Yes, lots."
"Soo you could go find another girlfriend."
"I don't go after them. They come to me."
"So girls think you are attractive."
"They like my long hair."
"So what's the problem? "Once they get to know me that break it off."
"How many girl friends have you had in the past two years"?
"About fourteen."
"That's a lot. How may of those didn't think you were 'emo'"?
"Two."
'Two out of fourteen. That's one seventh. If you were a baseball player you'd be batting almost 300. That's pretty darn good."
"I guess."
"There are 1400 students in this high school. How many would be girls"?
"About 500."
"I would think 700. Lets split the difference and say 600."
"OK."
"Of 600 girls, how may would you think are pretty or at least cute."
"About 200."
"OK. one third. Let's say there are two hundrend potential girlfriends but only one seventh won't reject you. That's about 28 girls in this high school with whom you might have a relationship."
"Maybe."
"I want you to start telling yourself three things. The faster you start saying this to yourself and believing it, the faster you will get over your anger and upset and move on."
"This sounds weird."
"Eventually you will do this on your own. For now just trust me and do as I suggest. The three things are: (1)My ex-girl friend is not worth my being upset over her.(2) There are lots of fish in the sea." (3) It's time to move on." I
want you to write these things down and practice saying them every day. I'll see you next week and we'll see how it's going."

Update

"Shrink: Odyssey of a therapist" has been published by Eloquentbooks.com and marketing has begun. The short sequel which I originally titled "The last ride"
has been accepted by PublishAmerica. Because they has a similar title in their cataloque my new title will be "Strategic intervention." Morrie, my alter ego therapist hero, is called out of retirement to treat a man with intractible pain in his arm and no identifiable organic basis. The patient reveals he is Stonewall Jackson, reincarnated. You'll have to read the rest. Since I may be on a writing roll, I am attemptonmg to breathe new life into several earlier and never published gems lying dormant in my basement, some for at least thirty years. I have registered this blogsite with Blogger Catalog for increased exposure.

New and old writing

The publication of my novel Shrink has generated some new enthusiasm for doing more. I have followed up on the adventures of Morrie Schwartz, Ph.D.sychologist with a new adventure. Morrie comes out of retirement to treat a man with intractible pain in his arm with no organic basis. The man reveals he is a reincarnated. Stonewal;l Jackson, Confederate Civil War hero. I am presently seeking a publisher for this long shoirt story or short novella--a novellete, I am told. Additionally, I am resurrecting some older poems and essays as well as a short, never published,textbook, "Search for the human mind." I fimd I was a better writer as a younger man but am more motivated now to complete these once-started projects. Time is running out.

Recession talk

The current economic meltdown and my tentative involvement with a project immersing me in Behavioral finance--an area of overlap between psychology and finance--has sensitized me to the the pervasiveness of psychological depression and panic. Yet even here there is some humor to be found.

The day was predicted to be unseasonably warm, with a high of 55 degrees. To get away for a few hours from a series of stressful occurrences in our lives, Joyce and I drove drove west on the Pennsylvania Turnpike. We intended to find a park or small town and walk in a rural setting to shake off the winter and situational malaise we both were feeling. Somehow we missed the exit we were shooting for and had to drive as far as Harrisburg before we could leave the turnpike. It was of little consequence except in extra gas since we had no definite destination. Growing hungry and needing a restroom we headed east for Lebanon on Route 422. As we approached the town the views of silos and pasture gave way to a plethora of used car lots, and autompobile supply stores. There was an abundance of fast food restaurants which we shunned in hopes of funding something a notch better in town. Three times we drove back and forth in Lebanon, from first to tenth street, up Main Street and down Walnut. Perhaps we missed the right section but to my best knoweldge there are no restaurants in Lebebon, not even for a bologne sandwich. (Doesn't it come from there?) Proceeding south back toward the Turnpike I noted we were passing through a tiny town labeled Schleffersville on my map. Seizing the moment, I labeled it "Schleppersville," reflecting my disdain for a place without restaurants. (There were two hospitals we noted, perhaps to treat people who needed to eat out more often.) Suddenly Joyce, who was driving, made a sharp left turn at too fast a speed into the parking area of a Tavern and Diner. Dare we risk a Schleppersville eatery? We had no choice. Our bladders were as filled as our stomachs empty.

It really wasn't that bad once we were able to communicate our lunch preferences. They had a different name for the cod fish sandwich Joyce selected from the menu. My Philly cheese steak and fries were easily understood. The bartender and likely the owner wore a T-shirt showing a large bare bottom breaking wind. "Free gas" was the inscription. I describe this without passing judgment but merely to provide some idea of the local ambience. Joyce used the lady's room and returned with this account. There was a sign on the wall inviting patrons to write "an emcouraging message" and leave it in the basket provided. Joyce wasn't so inclined but was sufficiently curious to read the two messages in the basket. "I have to sell my house. I need money" was the first. The second was neither accepting nor disparaging, merely factual: "Leroy is shacking up with Alma." Somewhat facetiously, and more for my benefit since the town was plainly marked on the map, Joyce asked the waitress : "What town are you in? "Lebanon" was the reply.

Was she reluctant to use the correct name with obvious strangers? Was she Alma and the T-shirted bartender Leroy? Was this really still part of Lebanon and the only restaurant in town, located five miles south? Was the town commemorating a real person named Schleffer and the name therefore eponymous? Was Schleffer a schlepper? I don't suppose we'll ever know. We won't be going back real soon.


O.K. It's hard to read a map in a moving car. I've looked up the town and have found that it is really named Schaefferstown, not Schleppersville. It even has a hotel. I apologize to the good citizens who reside there. It gave us a laugh when we needed it. Schaefferstown sits between Kleinfeltersville and Cacalico, Pennylvania. To us it will always be Schleppersvillle.

The perils of writing

I find rhe writing part of writing exhilirating. I like to be creative. I gain pleasure from a finmished product, especially if I am fortunate enough to find a publisher, a feat that seems to become increasingly difficult.
It is the post-creative tasks that become odious--the endless editing and the marketing that are most daunting.

I looked forward to receiving the final page proofs for Shrink this past week.
I had edited the voume myself several times already and had paid a professional editor to critique what I had writtien. Her critique was most valuable in teaching me some things I was doing wrong but, alas, like me, she missed a fair number of typos and careless puntuation gaffs. The page proofs came as a seemingly finished book, bound with the cover design I had obsesse with the artist. Surely, I thought, there would be no or at best a minimum of errors to be found. Wrong!. I spent a day going line by line and found to my horror twenty mistakes I could not leave uncorrected. All but one were my fault, not the type setter. I checked. They were in the galleys I had approved a month ago. I just hadn't seen them. Psychologists are aware of the ability of the brain to overlook small omissions, to fill in the empty spaces, connect the dots so that we perceive form and meaning with minimal stimulus input. This fact does not absolve me of responsibility here and I will, no doubt, be asked to pay for the corrections in the finished product.

Another frustration arose from a sequel to Shrink that I wrote while waiting for editorial and production process for Shrink to grind out. I wrote a short piece of 14,000 words--the further adventures of my hero in Shrink. What to do with it? I learned it was too long for a short story--usually four to five thousand words, and too short for a novel, the skimpiest of which are about 60,000 words. "So it a novella," I told myself. Many brilliant authors wrote novellas--Hemmingway's Old man and the Sea, for one. Most of the Steinbeck masterpieces also are novellas. Not my newest production, which I call The Last Ride. Novellas are usually 20,000 to 40,000 words. "Add 6.000 words I was told by an editor who publishes anthologies for novellas. I don't want to. The story is tight and fast moving as it stands. I didn't set out to write a short piece. I told the story I wanted to tell and when it was finished I stopped. It had 14,000 words. Does that make me a bad person? "It's a novellete," I was informed. Who wants to publish novelletes? If you hear of someone, let me know.

Books

Over the New Year holiday I visited my daughter and her family in Natick, Mass.
Betsy and Brian gave me a book titled Wilderness Plots by Scott R. Sanders. This is a series of 50 short (two page) vignettes describing people and conditions involved in the settling of the Ohio Valley, beteen 1780 and 185o. They are all interesting
vignettes but the most meaningful is a piece titled Cutting Roads. It describes Ebenzer Zane and sevewn sons who cut trails by ax through the wilderness, including a bridle trail from the Ohio River through West Virginia into Kentucky. This allowed the mail to go through to Ohio.
When I learned that my son Michael and his wife Betsy are to be divorced and that Betsy would be renting a house behind us,separated by a patch of woods, I began a trail between the two houses so that Jack, their six year old, could visit easily.
Michael joined in with his chainsaw and soon the awesome and illegally cut trail was complete. I identified most strongly with old Ebenzer, who was granted 400 acres by the government for his efforts. My recognition, should the trail be found by the owners association, may be quite different.

I was also impressed by one of Brian's books--"Conversations with Neil's brain" by a neurosurgeon and neurophysiologist, whose names escape me at the moment but I have ordered the book from Amazon. The book describes the results of electrical stimulation of the brain to identify the locii of cognitive and perceptual function. Their inferences appear to go beyond their data and also beyond their areas of expertise as they speculate about consciousness, language, dreams and the like. Like other neuroiscientisrts that attributre dreams to meaningless, random noise in the nervous system and not worth the attention afforded to them by therpists. I take excepton to this in two books I have written about dreams ("Demystifying dreams" and "The brain and dreaming") because of my experience with dreams, both personally, and in my private practice. The authors also explain consciuous as the sum total of brain function and no more. In Book Two of Shrink I speculate that consciousness may be much more. Another of the Wilderness Plots vignettes, "Frostbite of the soul," descibes a precher who is also a cobbler. As he stitches his leather shoes he ponders his sermons. He reasons that just as the shoe is the vessel of the foot, so the body is the vessel of the soul. Somehow I identify with the preacher more than the scientists in this matter.